This decision must last.
I don't know.
I took acid the other night,
Without much thought.
I throw myself into situations.
And I assume my stumbling, confused self will just take the beating.
I enjoyed it, though I was stuck babysitting the drunken one.
Little bit of a disappointment.
My friend was only drunk and should have been the one to
take care of the barfing overgrown child.
But some don't seem to have much of a heart.
For anyone but themselves.
So, I sat in the van of ever changing patterns.
And tried my best to take care of the human
who seemed to be slowly vomiting slugs?
I don't care, I suppose.
My father woke me up, yelling.
Once again reminding me that he thinks I'm a drug addict because I sleep.
I have no agenda,
Why wake me?
Life seems pointless recently.
I have once again decided I don't like anyone.
And I have left most acquaintances.
I made some vodka plans tonight.
But even my dear Vodka can't bring me to spend time with these people.
I want to drink with interesting people.
Who challenge my intelligence.
Rather than bring a disgusted smirk to my withering face.
And someone rid me of these walking erections!
I want nothing to do with them.
I am so over this.....sex.
Simply to ease the craving.
I'll have it for another reason.