29.7.11

Why are things un natural.
Uncommon.
Why, do I still not trust you.


Why am I building up this numb.
Pre death.

16.7.11

I'm trying not to be obsessed with my weight.
But I fucking suck.

11.7.11

Boston.

Like pouring sugar on my wine.
You're the addiction of my time.
Feelin' warm on my finger tips.
The best looking thing I ever hit.

Not like I'm about to go anywhere.
But you're looking at other skies.
That one day you'll recognize
Without me.
You'll forget about our history.

Too bad I'm so deep in.
This tangled.
Strangled.
Explosion.

I think about this,
and my guts eat my brain.
I look at you, and I'm crying.
Ask me why, I keep lying.

I'm embarrassed of.
My need for you.

But maybe that's just this frightening love.
You're the skin that pushes the shove
In my mind.
That you're looking at other skies.
Why the fuck am I surprised.

It's a continuum.
You're a pattern of the forgotten sun.
I am a mirror of the memory.
What the fuck, you've forgotten me.






WHAT THE FUCK. YOU NEVER EVEN MADE THE MEMORY.

3.7.11

Boston.

 
I happened to.
Be addicted to.
This tension.

I don't belong.
Though I'm wrong.
And I mention.

Incorrect connection.
This awkward acception.
I'm a lie.
In my mind.
But the reality.
Still calls to me.
To take me from the.
Curtains.

I'm hurtin'.


I'm just afraid.
Of the mistakes.
I taste like.

But if they look straight on.
They can see through the clone.
Of this creative.
Comfortable.
alone.
and....
alone.

I feel okay if I'm alone.

You're the exact blood.
Of  this baby feeling.
It's still needing.

Jo's still missing.

But it's sad because.
I still know you're leaving.

You're leaving.
So why not be gone.

This addiction to you.
Is only so long.

So I wean.
I wean.

You're beautiful,
But it's mean.

I wean,
And I wean.

I love you,
But I wean.

Such a lie.
Such a lie.

I'm caught inside the deviled mind.

I'm twisting in this evil grind.



But if you'll fade away.
If you'll be dust to stay.
Why look at you with this wonderous need.
You're soon to leave.
You're soon to leave.

Why am I crying.
If you're soon to leave.






Monkey.